How to realize you're an asshole!

You gotta laugh at yourself. The day I realized I was an asshole, an idiot, and a moron, was the day that propelled my life forward. I thought I knew it all. I must have been three; maybe four months clean, going to two meetings a day, and basically my life was fucked. But of course, I still had it all under control.

So one morning coming out of the gym, my sponsor, a crazed Marine sniper from Vietnam, stopped me cold.  I had been telling him all morning how I was going to overcome the mountain of obstacles I’d brought on from the years of addiction and madness. He said, “You know what, you’re a fucking asshole! Look at your life. You’ve fucked up everything you’ve ever done. You’ve been in a dozen rehabs. You might go to jail. You have no means to support your kids. And you’re still running the show. The day you realize you’re an asshole, an idiot, and a moron, that’s the day your life will begin to change!”

Wow! It really hit me hard. I had to laugh! He was right. I remember spending most of that day thinking about what he said. Reality is a tough thing to stare down. I’d created an illusion, a reality of my own, a place to survive because the truth was just too painful. But I was a joke. And the biggest joke was on me.  I was the guy with the apple on his head; everybody in my world could see the apple but me.

So step back for a moment today and laugh at yourself. Have some fun at your own expense! Don’t take life to seriously!  Remember what’s real; there is not a person on the planet that’s getting out here alive!  

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